It is NOT really about ME anymore...

There are definitely many thoughts running in my head now as if they will never get tired.

Well... it's really been a while... I never thought I'm gonna update this blog anymore but I guess today's gonna prove it WRONG! Let's see... where should I start?

Today is my 20th Birthday.

These past few days I've been thinking a lot.

Kinda like the flash back of my life... for these past 20 years...

I got a feeling this blog post gonna be LOOOONNGGG....

I'm really grateful for today... not because it's my Birthday... but it gives me an opportunity to really voice out how blessed and how appreciative I am to ALL my friends and family.

A couple days ago... many asked me what I am gonna do for my birthday... to be honest, I have no idea... but if the question is given to me few years back.. I would have many many plans and ideas in my head...

So this gets me ponder... ponder... and wonder.......

This life is really not about ME ME ME anymore. (Ok ok... I'm not trying to be Mother Teresa or Mahatma Gandhi here)

Before this, I always think birthday is really a great day... the spotlight will be on me, all my friends will wish me, get to eat the cake, birthday songs, parties, prezzies, go crazy, everyone be nice to me, it's MY day, it's ME, ME and ME! Who don't love to be loved?

But, I came to know this LOVE, the LOVE that changed me, the LOVE that totally blown me away, the LOVE that saved me, the LOVE that pick me up, the LOVE that carried me through, the LOVE that is so gracious that no one can ever understand... I can go on and on about this LOVE but I can't just explain it...

Hence, my whole life has changed... This LOVE started to flow FROM me TO others... I can't help but to love others around me...

The amount of friends I get, it's just unaccountable... I start to wonder again... am I getting popular here? but I realised, it's NOT me... It's Him that drawing EVERYONE to Him... Our God, that are so real and alive. and I always pray that my ego wont be fed, and that I'm always humble before Him. This is the result when I'm devoted to Him.

See, I can NEVER understand why Christians are always so nice and kind (are they really nice? what are their motive? why they act such a way? they are just too fake... who will be that extra nice to me and who am I for them?) and ironically, I'm being one now... LOL!

In relationships, human nature will always want something from others ( what can he/she/they do for me? Can I be loved the way I always wanted to? Is this relationship benefiting me? Me me meeee..) God has just enlighten me with His thoughts for His way are not man's way... If I want to get all things right, it should start with me. Hold on, me? (Didn't you just said it's not about me?) Yes, it's what I can do for others... What can I benefit this relationships.. How can I help others.. How can be the ONE for you?

I'm not trying to make myself sounds very noble here... really, it isn't about me anymore..

Therefore come back to the birthday and what I'm trying to say here...

Birthday is always when the spotlight is on me... but I really do hope that I will be the one blessing my friends instead.. to tell them how much I really love them.. to tell them I really cherish this friendship.. to thank God for all of them.. to just be grateful that I can be a blessing for them..

I will be the puzzle and my friends are the pieces... haha.. random.. =P

Once again, I wanna thank for whoever that remembers my birthday and remembers that I'm still your friend no matter what... When you read until here, I can proudly says that you are my GREAT friend! hahaha...

As for birthday wishes, I have one really simple one, is to continue bless you guys as how He has blessed me..

This post is really getting too long... I have gazillions words more but I think I should stop by now... =)


..... and Today, what can I do for you? =)


God BLESS!

Thanks guys! =)

Yours truly,

Steven Cheam Win Datt
(your friend)